Bila.

Bodoh atau diperbodohkan?

Am i just being stupid or orang yang menstupidkan i ? I get very tensed when suddenly perasaan i changed drastically. Eventually today, yesterday was fine. I had a really great time with my friends and that whole day although macam exhausted gila kan tapi i happy sangat. Yes, happy. That's the word and i know it's only for temporary. Then, i was glad to meet up with this fella. No need to guess who the heck the fella is because he/she is just a fella. A fella that i really.... (malas nak cakap banyak). Well, to be frank, happy kan but bila i fikir balik i suddenly terasa lain. I don't know how to describe kan. I pun macam dah pening nak story sini. To let it be summarized, i terasa really really envy jealous and you know..(i know you surely don't get it kan?) Only me and my de' Mooks sahaja tahu and they understands me better. Ok, i rasa macam buntut lah. I rasa sadis, hati a bit cam nak rabak-rabak tenggelam dalam lautan merah. Kenapa ? Kerana hanya sebukti pictura yang i rasa i macam bodoh bila tengok dan lihat (still don't get it?better don't). Bila lihat, i rasa EJB (envy jealous benci). Mungkin kerana i masih and too sayang, i masih bertahan dan bersabar. Tapi sampai bila kan ? i sendiri tak tahu dan makin tawar. Seriously. Tolong ingatkan aku untuk jadi seorang manusia kecil yang kuat. Iya ? Bukan nak buat cerekarama sadis melankolik di sini cuma (Ok fine tak nak tipu i nangis kejap tadi)... Dah lah, untuk perhatian you if you baca ni. I happy sangat. Itu yang i boley katakan, tetapi happy i tu mudah terumbang-ambing. Susah lah bila banyak network ni kan yang keep on bagi information yang memang benar tapi buat hati jadi berkarat. Jadi i hanya mampu bertahan dan kekal tabah selagi i kuat. Sekian.