HAPPY is the word, yes. HAPPY.

Am i HAPPY now? am i?? hurmmmm.. i dunno. i just dunno whether i am HAPPY or i am UNHAPPY nor yet HAPPY wif myself now..huhuhuhu.. well, its great to get urself HAPPY.. laugh can make me HAPPY but only for temporary. Serious shit.. i know now i am happy wif laughters. im trying to get my 'HAPPY mode' like i had before..i am eager very eager to get back my own HAPPINESS. where is it? where?? where?? hmmmm.. Life hasn't always been HAPPY, sometimes can turn into the opposite context; SAD. haihhh.. u can see me very HAPPY sometimes or maybe always, but could u think back and try to observe on my own true self feelings which sometimes can get urself even more confused. Unpredictable huh? hahaha Now u know and u can make ur own assumption. Get out from the box lah! and work on ur 'think thank machine'; ur brain laa dummy.. Sigh~

i am pity wif my ownself. Serious shit. I dunno why i am not always HAPPY whenevr i am wif someone, like before. I am not HAPPY wif him because i couldn't never find his effortness to make me HAPPY wif him.. never.. because.. the word SELFISHness always dominates our relationship. Then why bother to have me to be "The Partner"?? Not only dat, wif all da bullshits some people had given me which at first kononnye la nk tarik ati i kn..PLEASE. i am not your toy to be played then be recycled!! hmmmmmmmm... i am very devastated taw when at first u had given me a hope whch i pleasantly accept and when im trying to give back wut u gave, everything turns like SHIT!! since then, i will never ever give any hope to anyone because of u whom i considered as 'The Pioneer of The Advantage Taker"!! and how i know dat i had been betrayed because after all this time i knew dat i was only ur 'Love Cure'... i am very disappointed wif myself. even now but afterall i am HAPPY now to see u HAPPY. . and im glad dat i am no longer stick ur face inside my 'think thank machine' no more..Thanks to who? Thanks to me because i had put my own mindset to overcome this.. Like ABRAHAM LINCOLN said; "Most people are about as happy as they make up their minds to be".. very true.. and i am now almost there.. i wish..i love u HAPPY (: