is it??

.i am confused.

i'm not confused

i'm just....

AFRAID

to ♥ & to lose


'this fella'
.
.
.

my true H.E.A.R.T speaks out loud!

 ♥ honest hearts produce honest actions ♥

i admired this quote which i found in an unknown webpage;

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her..

♥ love the heart that hurts you, but never hurt the heart that loves you ♥

the most important is..

♥don't fall in love with somebody who doesn't love you back ♥

TRUE, i have learned my MISTAKES before and i do hope it won't happen again!

♥the love that lasts the longest is the love that is never returned♥

how long will it be long this time ?? i wonder...

it is unpredictable actually because i always know that..

♥ love is a choice you make from moment to moment ♥

well, i am not trying to be a JIWANGer here but its true lah kann?? 

evryone wud face the same situation mcm i kan.. 

its just sumtimes i can be a bit psycho about this love thingy

and i dunno why.

.LOVE CAN BE A TRAGIC,
ONCE TRAGIC,
U WILL BE TRAUMATIZED FOR LIFE,
THEN,MAKE IT A CHANGE,
LOVE EVERYONE ELSE,
AND U WILL ALWAYS FEEL BE LOVED.

i have made a change, but still..
Sigh~


.i am confused.

♥GBK.GBK.GBK.GBK♥

*CLICK BELOW BABYYYY!!!! (:
official Blog ♥

.this is the beginning.

It has begun. Will it last??

.Complicated.

A Lil' Bit Of This & That

*inspired by Junk mag*

*inspired by Kenzo*

*Ltd*

*Ltd*

*inspired by Paul Smith Floral*

*inspired by MOOKS*

*inspired by Kate Moss*

*Ltd*

*inspired by Jenga*

*1week of boredomness*

.♪♫♪♪♫♪.

. Orson - Happiness .

.Undefined.

U made me HAPPY and I am HAPPY. 

♥ is undefinable by words.

So, ♥ to be ♥ed. 

Speechless!
.ilysm.

ADVERTISING? Wut do u think? Lights and Camera. Dream ON baby! Waka Waka Eh Eh!!

*COTTON ON : one of my FAV clothing line (-; *

*MNG still the BEST!*

p/s : How wus it?? i did some edit over here and there & i did follow the exact brand's logo. Sweeettt!!!

when BOREDOMNESS comes..

*BOSAN lagi..CF tergendala!!*

-btw, amacam?? GBK?? ni konsep BUTTERFLIES. A bit feminine *wink* HAHAHA-

.ku KESEORANGAN di rumah.

.hati ku berSCREAM menyatakan BoOssSAAaaaAAAAnnNn!!!!.

Hear Me When I Am Bored

-i do Sketch & just ♥ Sketching-

*bila kepala TAK mau terima INPUT dlm CLASS, it end up this*

*specially dedicated to my batchmates EUPHORIA 0307*

*KMPP moments*

_No One knows i sketched diz dlm 

KMPP Magazine 08/09

until i mentioned it here_

*HA HA HA HA*

*specially for GBK*

*credit to Zain (:

~♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ~

Finally!! Finally!! Finally!! 

..When 2 Hearts Meet..
..Have been waiting for this since lama dah..

3 DAYS straight. Evrything went very well and i enjoyed evry moment very much! 

"Penat,Ngantok,Letih,Mata Katak" tidak ku heran sama sekali.Yeaa!! 

.BEST.SUKA.ENJOY.

i'm gonna LOVE and MISS it~

.Thank You my  ♥.

_SYG kamo!_

~2 JUNE - 4 JUNE '10~

lol :-*

i am a TRYPOPHOBIC !!

This is AWESOME!!!! u knw wut? now i knw how to describe my own phobia symptoms!! ahhahahaha Damn. i dari dulu kott ade la gak sedar yg i ni cm a bit phobia sket dgn diz thingy yang cam LUBANG KECIK BULAT BULAT BANYAK BANYAK!!! Eieieiieieieiieieiei!! whenever i nmpk those thingy xkire la mana mana ponn.. BULU ROMA ku tegang!! Yawwwww!! i xle nmpk n tgk mende2 cm2.. WaaaaaaAAaaa and now i dh taw wuts da exact name for diz type of PHOBIA! Ahaaaaa!!! Its TRYPOPHOBIA!!!! 

i usha la kt these few websites en and found out the meaning and explaination for it.
Trypophobia is an intense fear of the following things, which results in an all-over itchy feeling and general uneasyness. Lotus seed pods, Crumpets, Pumice, Cavities in teeth, the Ampullae of Lorenzini in Sharks, Holes in concrete, Bug tunnels in wood, Enlarged pores of the skin, Aero Bars, Holes in walls caused by bullets, Bone marrow, Wasps' nest, Honeycomb, Bubbles in Dough, Ant holes, Veins in meat, Clusters of holes. 

Now, see seeeee!!! Just look at those pictures!!! oOOooOOoooOOoooOOoo(LUBANGLUBANG)!!
EeeeeieieiiieeeeeeeeyyyaaaaaaaaaaawwwwWWWwww!!!

.A Sudden Thought.

Sigh.. I dunno y its just suddenly.. well actually i just browsed almost all of my pics in the FB albums..trying to get rid of my boredomness. Pity. Then while i was browsing this 1 album of Euphoria's (my school batch), ttbe je trase cm rndu sgt2 my good ol' days mse kt school dulu2 kala. Especially my closest friends and buddies. Sigh~ then i pn maen2 la usha some of my batchmates nye pics album. Mostly of them smue currently studying in overseas. Aussie,NZ,Canada,UK etc. at 1st i felt cm HAPPY to see them yg finally dh stepped their foot kt sne which somehow dats wus like a part of OUR dream mse stdy kt school dulu. Getting scholarships and get offered for overseas studies and all dat lah..I pnah la gk cm rse devastated sgt2 for not pushing my studies very hard mse time SPM dulu however by now i shud be regretting yang i dah dpt msk UNIVERSITY amek Degree dah.. Alhamdulillah. But its just by a sudden thought pasal getting a great chances to pursue studies abroad laa kan. Who else yg tanak grab chance ni kan? I did applied all scholarships but bukan my rezeki. Not to say my SPM results was totally "CRACK" but still okey la cume they deserved more than me rite? (:  tah, maybe i can say i am a bit envy la di sini, tgk some of my besties dpt g sne and get a good education environment. and still cannot be compared dgn local universities la kan which somehow kt sana a lot more better compared to us. Cume sometimes there are still the Pro's and Con's stdy sana and sini jugak..but nevermind, it was just a thought for today saja..

Maybe i deserved here more afterall, hope i can be more successful in future and if boley nk gk sama standard dgn dorang kan althou i taw surely hard sgt2 la kan nk achieve aim tuu. HA HA HA! 

Nak kata nyesal ttbe ta bole la sbb dh Too Late en, so just keep on going je la with my current life skrg. *WINK*~

Let’s just fall in love again ♥ ♥

Let’s pretend baby
That you’ve just met me
And I’ve never seen you before
I’ll tell all my friends
That I think you’re starin’
And you say the same to yours

And oh, we’ll dance around it all night
And then I’ll follow you outside
And try to open up my mouth
And nothing comes out right

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don’t have to try
It’s so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because it’s so funny
Let’s just think about it, honey
Let’s just fall in love again

*and the song keeps singing...lalalalala~ 

*Howdy Howdy, i suke gegila ini lagu.. 

*Really a bit catchy indeed cm SWEET ouh 

*wink2*

mari makan makan CUPPY CAKE!!

Cake Personality Test

Pick your cake, and then look to see. Take this Cake Personality Test 

If you were buying a cake and you had your choice of the following, which would you choose? 

* Angel food 

* Brownies 

* Lemon Meringue 

* Vanilla with Chocolate Icing 

* Strawberry Cheese Cake 

* Chocolate on Chocolate 

* Ice Cream 

* Carrot Cake 

OK - Now that you've made your choice, this is what research says about you! NO... . you can't change your mind once you scroll down! So think carefully, what your choice will be!!! 

No peeking until you choose!!! 

Scroll down . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . ... ... .. . . . . 

* Angel food ... Sweet, loving, cuddly. You love all warm and fuzzy 

items. A little nutty at times. Sometimes you need an ice cream cone at the end of the day. Others perceive you as being child-like and immature at times. 

* Brownies . You are adventurous, love new ideas, are a champion of Underdogs and a slayer of dragons. When tempers flare up, you whip out your sabre. You are always the oddball with a unique sense of humor and direction. You tend to be very loyal. 

* Lemon Meringue... Smooth, sexy, & articulate with your hands, you are an excellent after-dinner speaker and a good teacher. But don't try to walk and chew gum at the same time. A bit of a diva at times, but you have many friends. 

* Vanilla with Chocolate Icing ... Fun-loving, sassy, humorous. Not very grounded in life, very indecisive and lack motivation. Everyone enjoys being around you, but you are a practical joker. Others should be cautious in making you mad, however, you are a friend for life. 

* Strawberry Cheese Cake... Romantic, warm, loving. You care about other people and can be counted on in a pinch. You tend to melt. You can be overly emotional and annoying at times. 

* Chocolate on Chocolate ... Sexy, always ready to give and receive. Very creative, adventurous, ambitious, and passionate. You have a cold exterior but are warm on the inside. Not afraid to take chances. Will not settle for anything average in life. Love to laugh.  ---> absolutely ME!! (:

* Ice Cream... You like sports, whether it is baseball, football, 

basketball, or soccer. If you could, you would like to participate, but you enjoy watching sports. You don't like to give up the remote control. You tend to be self-centered and high maintenance. 

* Carrot Cake... You are a very fun loving person, who likes to laugh. You are fun to be with. People like to hang out with you. You are a very warm-hearted person and a little quirky at times. You have many loyal friends. 

.The Truth From The Lies.

Beza Cinta, Sayang, Minat Dan Suka

Cinta - Kita memang mengharapkan dia menjadi milik kita. Segala apa yang kita buat, kalau buleh nak dia tahu.. dan kita sebuleh mungkin tak nak sakitkan hati dia. kita akan sentiasa berfikir tentang dirinya. (dalam erti lain : cinta di tujukan kepada seseorang yg kita selalu ingat dan mimpi.. Tanpanya kita akan rasa sunyi dan kita cintakan sepenuh jiwa dengan hati yg ikhlas kepadanya walaupun dia buat tak tau je)

Sayang - Kita memerlukan dia di masa kita mahukan seseorang untuk berkongsi rahsia dan kisah duka kita. selalunya kita akan sayangkan seseorang yang menjadi TELINGA kepada masalah kita. (dalam erti lain : sayang di tujukan kepada seseorang yang boleh membuangkan masa dia untuk mendengar dan memeningkan kepalanya dgn masalah kita dan kita jugak boleh menyakitkan hati dia kerana kita bukannya cinta kepadanya)

Suka - Kita sukakan dia kerana dia kelakar. Dia happy-go-lucky. Bila bersama dengan dia, kita rasa nak tergelak sampai nak pecah perut. Tapi, kita taklah rindu sangat kat dia bila tak berjumpa seminggu…(dalam erti lain : suka di tujukan kepada seseorang yang boleh menjadi pelawak kepada kita. Kita akan suruh dia diam sekiranya perot kita dah nak pecah…)

Minat - Apa sesuatu pada dirinya yang menarik kita untuk mendekatinya.(dalam erti lain : minat ditujukan kepada seseorang yang ada sifat, peribadi atau barang yang kita mahukan… ) 

Tetapi kita kena ingat bahawa tanpa minat , suka dan sayang kita tidak akan CINTA pada seseorang itu…

-credit to kau ROS!!-

i have found YOU.stay with ME.if & only if YOU want to.let US be HAPPY.YOU happy ME happy.

.i rasa HAPPY now.i SYG u.

"Jauh itu ada ruang yang memisah, jauh itu ada 2 hati yang terpisah.. apabila jauh itu ada rasa yang resah, apabila jauh itu ada jiwa yang gelisah, apabila jauh ada rindu yang tak sudah-sudah.."

-credit to (^^^)~-

LOVE LETTER for PROFESSOR!!

Diyana Azalea Binti Sapian

2009808478

BM2223B

Business Management (Finance)

                                                                            

Professor Madya Mohd Sabri Bin Mohd Amin

Lecturer of Corporate Finance (FIN538)

Business Management Faculty                                                                                

17May 2010

Dear Sir,

REASONS FOR STAYING IN YOUR CORPORATE FINANCE (FIN 538) CLASS

As for the above statement I, Diyana Azalea Binti Sapian would like to elaborate on the reasons of why should I be let staying in the class or else should drop the class as soon as possible. First and foremost, I would like to request an apology for referring the Corporate Finance text book during the quiz session on the last class. It is my mistake for not being an obedient person instead I took the advantage by referring the text book without your acknowledgement.

2.            I am now hereby realized my mistakes which somehow had caused you to lose the confident on me in the class. Indeed, since I have made up my apology and now I will promise to myself not to repeat the same mistake in the future classes. Therefore, it would be pleased if you would give me another chance in letting me to pursue my desire in learning your subject.

3.            Besides that, Corporate Finance (FIN538) is basically a part of my Third Semester’s subject. It is my desire to take this Intersession Classes in order to lighten the burden of learning and coping other subjects for the coming semester period which consists of 24 credit hours. Thus, I wanted to use the whole intersession period wisely without any delays.

4.            However, my mission for attending your Corporate Finance class is to actually fulfill my parents’ hope and desire to pursue my education. They have given their trust to me in completing my studies during this intersession period without any barriers, therefore, that is why I am very eager to continue and stay in your class and learn and master more about Corporate Finance from you as the expert one.

5.            As this is my first class with you, there are still some rules and regulations that I have to learn and abide. I might say that maybe I am not used with them yet however I will ensure myself to abide and learn them slowly step by step besides paying more attentiveness and be more disciplined in your class. I knew there some reasons for you to practice those rules and regulation in which to help us to be a more successful and achieve better person.

6.            Before I put this into conclusion, it is my pleasure for you to put your kindness and considerations in my letter. It would be more appreciated for you to accept my apologies and reasons that I am really urge to stay in your class in future.

Thank You.

Yours faithfully,

……………………………..

(Diyana Azalea Binti Sapian)

* adoiyyyyyy... baru 1st day class sudah kne mcmnie wOoooooOOO (0,o)"

HAPPY is the word, yes. HAPPY.

Am i HAPPY now? am i?? hurmmmm.. i dunno. i just dunno whether i am HAPPY or i am UNHAPPY nor yet HAPPY wif myself now..huhuhuhu.. well, its great to get urself HAPPY.. laugh can make me HAPPY but only for temporary. Serious shit.. i know now i am happy wif laughters. im trying to get my 'HAPPY mode' like i had before..i am eager very eager to get back my own HAPPINESS. where is it? where?? where?? hmmmm.. Life hasn't always been HAPPY, sometimes can turn into the opposite context; SAD. haihhh.. u can see me very HAPPY sometimes or maybe always, but could u think back and try to observe on my own true self feelings which sometimes can get urself even more confused. Unpredictable huh? hahaha Now u know and u can make ur own assumption. Get out from the box lah! and work on ur 'think thank machine'; ur brain laa dummy.. Sigh~

i am pity wif my ownself. Serious shit. I dunno why i am not always HAPPY whenevr i am wif someone, like before. I am not HAPPY wif him because i couldn't never find his effortness to make me HAPPY wif him.. never.. because.. the word SELFISHness always dominates our relationship. Then why bother to have me to be "The Partner"?? Not only dat, wif all da bullshits some people had given me which at first kononnye la nk tarik ati i kn..PLEASE. i am not your toy to be played then be recycled!! hmmmmmmmm... i am very devastated taw when at first u had given me a hope whch i pleasantly accept and when im trying to give back wut u gave, everything turns like SHIT!! since then, i will never ever give any hope to anyone because of u whom i considered as 'The Pioneer of The Advantage Taker"!! and how i know dat i had been betrayed because after all this time i knew dat i was only ur 'Love Cure'... i am very disappointed wif myself. even now but afterall i am HAPPY now to see u HAPPY. . and im glad dat i am no longer stick ur face inside my 'think thank machine' no more..Thanks to who? Thanks to me because i had put my own mindset to overcome this.. Like ABRAHAM LINCOLN said; "Most people are about as happy as they make up their minds to be".. very true.. and i am now almost there.. i wish..i love u HAPPY (:

Coretan Cenonet~

Oh la la la.. today la la la.. besok la la la.. luse la la la.. tulat la la la.. yah! yah! yah!! HA HA HA .. hey, x ku sangka how fast time goes by and passes by.. ishh weeknd ni im goin' back to Kay Ell.. hahahahha.. yaww, next week itu Monday class baru bakal bermula!! Ayoyoyoyo!! im not ready yet to learn anything! wAaaaAaa im still in d amood of HOLIDAY LA LA LA!!! tapi xpa, ceq x kesah nuuu.. apa ceq nk risaOoo ceq ada ja kengkawan ceq nk pi enjoy ka pi library kaa study ka (bosannn nye) ceq pi laaa!! hahahaha theres so many events i hve planned during this comin' intersession period. Yawww!! Can't wait!! heheheh... For a start, i have planned wif 'The  GegemOx' nk g JOGGING!! "AWESOME!!!" hahahahah sarcastic gila taw dak? issshhh crius shit la, i dh lama gila berazam okey nk g jogging every evening kt tasik shah alam ss7 tuuu.. dekat je ponnn nk jejalan. lalu je HAKIM mapley tuu... MOMEN tuu ( i know those kedai makan cm very tempting walopun aim sebenar nk g fitkan badan diet hahaha) waaaaa.. i rememberd ade 1st tym ME, KUMON and KUMEN went there diz 1 evening.. naseb si KUMEN yg ajak and i was lyk excited gegile so we went laa.. hahaha punye jejalan kaki jejauh ituu.. best2 sesampai sne mula la beraksi.. xle blahhh si KUMON!! dtg sne semata2 nk excercisekn MATA die bukan BADAN debab die or a.k.a "CUCI MATA" laaa!! HA HA HA!! nseb bek laa tym tuu xde langsong yg menarik mataaaa.. hahahaha.. coz during dat tym pon cm tgh stdy week and mostly lyk ramai stdy kotttt... hahahaha pity her.. tp best ouhh hahahha...mse balek tuuu jejalan kaki juga.. tp kami drop by kt kedai speedmart bli ayak! minum minum minum!! fuhfuhfuh~ so skg nie i dh aim nk continue balek itu azam mau kasi badan ini lemak2 kasi terbang laaa.. kasi itu penimbang berat bagi itu nombor bertuah at least dpt laaa 45kg-47kg!! ahhahaha (now u can guess my current WEIGHT!) Pfffttttt!!!~ tapiii bukan tu je, i dunno other plans yet..cm diz 1 is 1 of the plans laaa.. i was thinking nk plan lagiii.. maybe g JEJALAN JEJALAN althou my money dah yilekk daaa.. wuwuwuwuwu.. lastly nk conclude yg saya sebenarnye sudah P.O.K.A.I !!! :(

LOVE is a problem. Sigh~

"Life without love is like a tree without blossoms or fruit. Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself. To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night. To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving. When love is not madness, it is not love. Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind, and therefore is winged Cupid painted blind. Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own. Love is an exploding cigar we willingly smoke. You know you're in love when you don't want to fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams. Love is like a friendship caught on fire.  In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable. "

Norah Jones - Don't know why

I waited 'til I saw the sun
I don't know why I didn't come
I left you by the house of fun
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Out across the endless sea
I would die in ecstasy
But I'll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road along

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Something has to make you run
I don't know why I didn't come
I feel as empty as a drum
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

 dedicate to zaim nordin :( sorry..

.wonderfool.

awwwww, dh almost 1week holiday. so like lg 1week more to finish my holiday. Grrrr.. bosank GILA GILA.. maybe it sounds cm exciting giler yg next2 week im gonna start my intersession classes..WAAaaa!! sumtimes ade gk pkir its kinda rugi 4 not 2 spend like 2 months of holidays instead, u spend da whole 2 months menatap wajah kitab CORPORATE FINANCE. awwwwWWww!!! hahaha..Grrrrrrr, tp when thnk back k..it sounds creepy jugak yg sem 3 my credit hrs like 24 hrs tuuuu.. so better i pissed out my credit hrs in advance mse intrsession ni. at least i have cover 1 subject. i mean TOUGH one as for QMT pn TOUGH gk n which i cant rmmber wuts da subject's name. hahaha! Poor me. Dammit! haha da funny part was mse awl2 1st week tuu i hve read the book of corp fin tuu kannn and CHooiiiyyyy!!! i got HEADACHE in my stomach!! hahaha..evrytime bce je each page, i will gt HUNGRY!! LAPArrr.. so dat means, BORInnggGGgg duhhh.. hahaha. actually i juz being Phsycophatic je ponnn nk bce2..but surely laaa im nt gonna finish all those topics..CRAPS!! HA HA HA HA.. but i do hope later sooner im gonna LIKE LIKE LIKE this subject!! YEA YEA YEA!! *wink2*... awwww! y am i talking bt this academic thingy? HUSH HUSH!!! I MISS GBK!!! Koranggggg ak nk lek nk lek!!! Now im gonna declare da date of establishment of GBK ----> 10.01.10 !! (:

HuGs~